Words part III

some words seem to flow like the soft love of the flowers
some words stay with you forever
and some seem to grow an take a life of their own
when they want to be said
pregnant with meaning
soft with hate and rough with love
i speaak and say less than i mean
more than i know
i have wandered this lonely road
looked into her eyes
but the words never seem to come they have failed me
once again
once more
i sing my silent song
lay my mute words on life's bed
like lovers we play
but the words hang unspoken in the air
i can almost touch them i can almost see them
would they whisper their meaning
would they tell me that i can now see ?
forgive me words
forgive me all who i talked to
for they have never heard what i really meant to say
all this makes me cry
and as i think these words the tears stream down my sun touched face
i furrow my brow and then seem to smile some
bittersweet thought
the words for this too are lost in me
the words of my heart have lost their way

Gods of Communion

I am not so sad any more
the pain has passed over me

I think i thought this since i was four
u reminded me of that lost glee

the blue of our hearts creates a signature
a dried red name, burnt into out physche

the blue smoke wraps itself in a blur
like an invasion slowly as the algae

they eat inside my head, they scream for recognition ?
but reality is it any truer is it any more sincere ?

we all scream in unision, we cry together
are we heard any better for our mass lamentation
as the religious shred their skin in a frenzy of communion
we too do the same, we shred our souls
scaring all of the spindle legged foals

oh god of communion
ah lord of flies and the rings too
why can't anything be true

I think that I am so unorginal
so lame as i spew out the same
shit of all my generation
self pity and a defiance
a morbid wish to challenge the worlds
a fascination with life and a dance with death

hey mister
cant' you help me ?
can't some one come and take us all by the hand
daddy has been skewered on isms

I know you will come in the end
I will watch and wait... I have really tried
the suicide of the gods has imprisoned us all
the wait is so hard the time so slow as we speed through life

the rings don't always seem to fit
as I put my trust in you

amen

Leaves blew

child, girl i cry and beg the gods of the woods, of the oceans to hear..
my tears mingle with the dew of the women of my life
the cries of pain and pleasure
the blood of love and life
I am blinded by the clouds of thoughts of regret
and hope all wisping through our lives...
I reach and grip the nothingness of our loves and passions
the ether of our hurts and wounds.
I wish to tell you
I wish to laugh and leap for joy
please excuse me ladies and gentlemen
i i can not fit the mold because it was broken,
some other life, some other death...
someone abandoned me,
someone stole my heart's flower and all the butterflies died..
the leaves blew away that day the skies darkened.

Sweet lady

Sweet lady will you be there ?
when we hide in our dark, dark shadows
sweet lady will you see when
I touch the wide, wide sky

they all seem so sure
like a flower pure

I can't seem to grasp it all

cause it is so much wider than you and me
I'd give it all you know just
to look into your eyes and know what I see
instead of only a man stuck on this crust

Sweet lady will you be there ?
when we hide in our dark, dark shadows
sweet lady will you see when
I touch the wide, wide sky

yeah we're all looking for the cure
beggars all of us so, so poor

I just can't seem to stop this fall

cause life is hungry for you and me
abandoned from all loves' trust
and the dolphins leap in the sea


Sweet lady will you be there ?
when we hide in our dark, dark shadows
sweet lady will you see when
I touch the wide, wide sky

Sweet lady will you be there ?

Close your eyes

close your eyes
for the fear of the night will only subside
close your soul to the yearnings or you will fly
close your eyes to all the things
that life brings
the blue sky morning
the rays of sun touch our lives
the sun warms us slowly
but we have sought other suns and other paths
the visions behind our eyes
the thoughts so grand
losing all our secrets
like the farmer sowing his seed
maybe our dreams too will sprout and give life
maybe we'll open our eyes and see that our fears are our hopes
then we will stand renewed
uncovered beneath the hands of God

Little Girl

Don't worry
because it takes some time little girl
every little thing will be alright
some poet said that
but we know that the world is not so bad
cry in my arms
but never fear that the feys will see
that the trees will stand forever
and that the moon of your stars will rise

don't worry little girl
everything will be just fine
the world will turn and our time will come

hold to your dreams
hold to your loves

close your eyes
close those khol eyes
little girl hold your fist closed
that peeble will sing
of your love and dreams

close your eyes little girl and see
I am there everything will be ok

I am falling into the sea the waves are dancing our dance
the dolphins are singing the whale song
close your eyes little girl and see that I swim in your wake
see with your soul that the dolphins are playing with your curls
little girl
the feys are so happy

I will hold you, as you awake the dreams will recede
the touch of my strong arms will go

but don't worry little girl because I will always be in your dreams
everything will be ok


Love Papa

The Calling

the calling is upon all our kind
we see because we open our hearts
even then we are sort of half blind
to see all our lost and scattered parts

come to my arms cause we will drink
till we are sober and then fly
not to escape but to open our minds
to understand the infinite
to lose the soul of our vanity
to break these chains
an' loose all our pains

hear the eternal calling in your mind
you'll see if we touch softly our hearts
child, then you can see why we are blind
help connect again all these sad parts

come to my warm arms and stand at the brink
then hold my hand and look at the sky
to capture the world with our minds
to grasp together the vast night
and to hold our sanity
and cast away the chains
an loose all our pains

the calling awoke in me some kind
of feeling that only just now starts
to work its way through my confused mind
come, now listen to our beating hearts

yeah come cause all we can think
is that we one day we'll wing and fly
across the sky with our open minds
into the bright white light
losing all worries of vantity and sanity
and free from all the chains
and leaving all our pains

The darkeness is so soft

It holds me surround
As I stand lost on loves mound
I seek what is lost and find
What is unfree
The leaves fall ever so softly
Can you tell me how does it feel ?
To understand that we have touched the god
Have sought the ether
And we’re thrown apart from there on
Can I cry once
Can I bleed the tears of all mankind
But really I can’t say I am sad it is just an albi
So stand and feel
To fall and come there
Where we have our souls bound
As if sky was open
But the clouds are low today
The words escape my mind
Seeping like lost birds
Drifting and wet
In the grayness of our scape
Our soulscape and I hold to all the thoughts
Since I spoke a new language
Since I danced in front of her
I thought then, lost you when
I couldn’t make you say…
Make you open your heart
I lost you then
Some say
I should ask you then
How does it feel ? when
You stand alone ?

Can you but see ?
What this was to me

Can you but hear ?
What is so clear

I smile sadly, sweetly..
I would really mind
If they saw what I lost… if they find
…what I couldn’t