the sun in my eyes

I would like to say

Just where in my heart you lay

But I seem to have lost

Those elegant words

As if I have paid some terrible cost

I would like to say the words that would make you tremble

And curl against me till the end, as a one assemble

how slowly some alchemy was worked

how fearfully we confessed

to drink ourselves together

when we walked that castle

and had to be so quiet that time

and I smile, and I sigh

it is the last call

for love’s alcohol

What can I say ?

When I close my eyes and see

how you touched me the first time

looking back in the fast train

and hid in the sand

found love in the glade

door opening and me falling

but alas

my poems

my prose

soft like a sea borne breeze

I have dried

all the mind’s ink,

as if gone from my insides

washed away with our heart tides

my muse has gone..

So what is left me darling ?

To say some beautiful things

Weave a spell of my mind to you

To tell you where you live

Inside of me

Maybe I should better just cease

Because the most beautiful words

Are maybe the ones that we left unsaid

The way that the wind blows

carelessly your hair is the most wonderful

or the way we made the painting so

as we lay unleashed in the steam

can I ever make words that will paint those things

can I ever craft them painlessly

so that we can remember ?

I think not

I will not

And so my love

When I should say goodbye, I say love

And when I should walk away, I stay

My goodbyes are not tomorrow

They are for words un spoken that we would never bear to say

They are for warm reunions

That by the waste side have

Been fed

What we were, will be

What was, can be this way

Follow me

Or be free